The other day I got a text from Bumble. She was in one of those weird moods when you know what you're complaining about makes no sense, there's no reason to complain, yet you still want to complain. And nothing anyone says is going to make you feel any better about the matter. Ever been there?
How could I resist adding a picture of my beautiful best friend?
Fun Fact: this is one of the few pictures Bumble & I can agree on liking!
I realized as I tried to console her with logic, (very unsuccessfully, I might add) that she was probably just temporarily unhappy with life. Which caused me to think about my own life. Don't get me wrong, I am beyond blessed to be where I am with the friends that I have, but something just isn't right.
I was quoted in my high school yearbook saying "If I couldn't dance, my life would fall apart."
It hit me the other day that I haven't taken a dance class in over two years. Yes, I preformed in songfest last year, but it wasn't serious, technical dance.
I've let my life become so busy that I haven't had time to do things that I truly love. I love to dance. I put my entire heart and soul into it and there's really nothing that compares for me. Dance offered me a creative outlet that I no longer have.
To say my life is falling apart would be a bit of an overstatement, but this has made me realize that sometimes we need to schedule out time to do the things we love so they don't get lost in a sea of other to-dos.
One of my goals for the semester was to read for pleasure. I used to read all the time for fun and I lost it as I was in high school. I just finished Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire and while I was in the middle of it, I was itching to keep reading! Yes, I know how it ends, but I still wanted to read it! I found that I have to tell myself that I can read one chapter then I have to sleep, otherwise I'll be up into the wee hours of the morning reading.
I'm resolving to make some more goals for the rest of the semester.
Goal one: I want to spend more time blogging. I was so good about posting every other day over the summer and being back on campus has gotten the best of me! I promise to post at least once a week, but I will try to blog more often than that!
Goal two: I will find a way to dance. This is definitely a more ambiguous goal, but as I move forward I will find someway of accomplishing it! I know I will be auditioning for MTV Night for greek week, so this will help and I think I will audition for Dance Club in the spring.
But, most importantly, I resolve to start doing things that make me happy.